Broken Record

This book was originally titled 'The Despairationist'. It is a collection of experiences, hopes and more following a choice of demise - suicide'. Gratefully I live to tell the narrative of strength and survival. I want to tie loose ends to this tragic era. I would like to personally thank you for helping me find the pieces I thought I had lost. Broken record personifies the silhouette I walked for a long time. Being broken, a series of true events shackled me to a single thought of escape - suicide. Some of those true events still linger, they remain a treasured path to my growth as I have cleansed myself of others and made peace with their demons. Broken - a combination of memories and hopes I tried my utmost best to glue back together. Alike trust, once broken it is hard to repair and takes years. At a time of immense hopelessness, writing was my secret sanctuary to dwell and cry. Writing was a performance and I felt like a magician, I could write about anything and felt inner peace for moments at a time. As I spoke through my writings, certain memories felt like illusions and I became stronger. I have aspired to be a magician in many talents. Supporting my personal growth in being confidence, accepting others and overcoming teaching situations. I hope you will resonate with my writings, love and cherish each of these lines I have. Each piece is perfected to avoid unnecessary vulgarity, I want everyone to be able to take something from these writes without being put off. I regard to writing as a sanctuary of dreams, as I write. I dream of a better tomorrow, a fresh start and I make peace with today. I write to love someone out there and heal something inside of me; I hope that I can love through these writes and help heal someone out there.